My heart hurts

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UnHoly Charm

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I know I haven't been on much but I just really needed to talk to someone. Today the little ones I have been caring for are gone and my heart is breaking. The oldest who is 4 I had cared for since she was 3 months old and her sister who is 2, shortly after she was born.
Some of you who know me are aware that not only did I care for them but that they had also lived with me when the oldest was born for the first 2 years of her life and then again for the last 6 months.
They have been a part of my life now for so long they were more like family. Yes their father and I are cousins, but the little ones became part of my life and now they are gone and it Really hurts.
I am sitting here in this empty house and every noise I here makes me think they are just in the other room, or any second they will becoming around the corner yelling for me for one reason or another.
I can't stop crying, I know this all may sound absolutely stupid to some of you but everything I see around the house another memory floods my mind and I am just having a very difficult time atm.
 
Well , darling if you need anything I'll be here to listen as often as possible and try to help with anything I can. Just try what I said and just let yourself heal.
 
I know the feeling when mine is gone for awhile ...Perhaps you should get a job working in the daycare field? You seem to be rather good at handeling little ones!..

P.s. If it'd make you feel better I'll ship you my 13yr old neice for a month!!
 
Is it just me or does it seem like this board is having more than its fair share of pain lately?

I know better than to think I know precisely how you feel. But at the very least, I can relate. It sucks, I know, and I have no clue how long it will take to stop hurting so much. I'm told it gets better, and consciously I know that to be true, emotionally is another story.

Vent to me all you want. We can be sounding boards for each other.
 
C, I wish you lots of luck and I agree with the others that your pain will ease with the passing of time. I sort of know how you feel, leaving my neices and nephews whom I helped raise since they were born. If you need anyone to talk to, leave me a pm as well.

The pain will always be there, but it's how you get through it that really matters. Hang in there, you got a lot of support here. {hugs}
 
Hey beautiful. You and I have spent MANY hours discussing those lil ones and how they complete you. We have also discussed how you need a break from them. The pain will ease and you'll settle into yourself again. You will see. I wish I was there to give you a big hug. I miss you lots. Smile that beautiful Shy smile and know I love you woman.

Momma
 
Thankyou all for the kind words, I appreciate all of you for wanting to help me through this rough patch.
Rhysis, you especially since your going through your own hell right now. Oh, and I added you to my friends list on yim. If you need to pm me Any time.

Sinful, T, Colvin, thankyou for caring, and Mith, thankyou for taking the time Wednesday to talk with me when I was at my worse. If you hadn't been there for me that day I think I would of jumped in my car and went after them lol. Can't believe that 2 little people could make such an impact on my heart and life.

Mommi!!! Lordy girl, I really miss you. I'm so sorry your going through bad times. But your strong and you Will get through this even if it feels atm that you won't. Nothing and no one gets the best of Robin and god help the fool that tries to bring you down. Get them ass kicking boots on and show'em whose the boss.*hugs super tight*
 
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