Well hello Ayenee, it has been a very long time and a lot has happened in the past year that has made life very rough for a time.
When I got my promotion for my job, they started working me to the bone which pulled me away from my family longer. I understood that this was what was required of being a Store Manager for the place that I worked and running my own store, but having me work 10-15 hours a day for almost 7 days a week for a measly salary was not quite worth it. After all the hours that I pulled, was getting an average of below minimum wage. I even worked when I was sick cause there was no-one else that would come in and help me out and my bosses really did not give a damn, the business was being ran as they expected. Their response, "Well that's your job." Well last I checked, working myself to death for a small set pay amount and basically living in my store was not part of the job description.
Well I did my job anyways cause being the sole-income for my house needed me to work even if the pay was crap cause I needed to support my family. Finding a job is hard this day and age and I was grateful to have a job in the first place even if it was not the best and the pay was crappy, but I did it anyways cause my family comes first.
Well right before Christmas, I was doing my routine Week-Ending counts which is required by the company, going through the entire store and counting everything at the start of business, and being the only one on the clock working while waiting for the next person to come in and start work. I noticed a couple items on my food line that needed replacing cause they expired the night before. I was in the process of doing all my prep and to get those items replaced when my Area Manager came in. She was going through the line and did see me working on prepping fresh product when she saw the expired. She did not care that I was working on replacing it. Result, fired.
What really pisses me off is that there was no warning, no corrective action, no minor warning punishment at all for this rare occurrence. Everyone knew that I was very serious about my job and would not do anything to jeopardize it nor the health of my customers, nor the welfare of my family. It was a one-time occurrence that I was already in the process of correcting, but they did not give a shit. I have known many Store Managers within my same company in the area that have done worse and did had expired food on their line way more times and only had minor warnings. Me, one time and they fire me without a damn care.
Now life is getting harder as bills are piling up and disconnect notices from utilities coming in. This fricken state that I live in that is not the islands, they say $194 a month in Food Stamps is enough to feed a family of 4. BULLSHIT!!!!!!! Unemployment said that I am getting benefits from them cause the loss of my job was not my fault, but they themselves have not sent me anything yet, and ITS ONLY BEEN 3 WEEKS WAITING STILL!!! I was told that I would have them right away, but I'm still waiting and the state is not responding back to me as to what is taking so long. Each day that passes is a day closer that we are about to lose everything. Even home on da islands did not give this type of bullshit when I was fired from McDonalds.
My health is starting to fail again from the stress, and can't find a job yet despite all the applications that I'm filling out. Last time I was filling applications for two years straight while we still had some money left from the sale of our house. All that is gone due to expenses that had to go out, so we have no cash to help us. The only ones helping us is friends who have been giving suggestions on whom to go to for help, but the places that we are checking are not helping, stating that we are not in a bad enough situation for them to help. The only ones helping is the Food Banks, and with the large volume of people in our city that are needing food, the amount of food that they can give is enough for only 1 1/2 people, and its picking up once every 30-45 days. The food does not stretch that far and we are trying to stretch it as far as we can, but does not stretch far enough.
On the business that are supposed to help but refusing to do so, unemployed with disconnect notices in the middle of winter and a family of 4 to support, AND ITS NOT BAD ENOUGH TO REQUIRE HELP?!! WHAT TYPE OF FUCKING BULLSHIT IS THAT?!!!
Its a fucked up life in a very fucked up State that has a very fucked up thought process. Me and my family are trying to keep positive, but being very hard to be positive at this time when my family's survival is at stake.
I'll catch you laterz Ayenee, if I'm ever able to get the chance to come swinging back by.
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